Be Mindful- A Reminder

Do you ever just sit back and think about other peoples life? I don’t mean like the answer to what is life, I mean more of what is going on beyond you and your own world. Every persons day to day life seems similar and they may be yet everyone is fighting their own battle…

Postpartum mental health

Being married and having a relationship while dealing with mental health is tough. But, you know what is tougher? More Draining? Being a mother and dealing with mental health issues. For me I entered motherhood without catching a single breathe. It was not planned, I was alone 99.9999% of the pregnancy and 100%after birth. I…

Marriage&Mental Health

Being married to someone who suffers with any type of mental health issues is tough. At times it can take a toll on a marriage, it can create rougher patches… I’ve made a simple list of some helpful tips. Simply be there. Even if you don’t understand what is going on exactly, be there. Let…

Morning…

noun “the act of a person who mourns; sorrowing or lamentation the conventional manifestation of sorrow for a person’s death, especially by the wearing of black clothes or a black armband, the hanging of flags at half-mast, etc.the outward symbols of such sorrow, as black garments.the period or interval during which a person grieves or formally…

Not my words.

The link below is an article, not written by me. But it does a beautiful job of expressing my feelings. Feel free to read it and let me know what you think about the article. I know for me, i felt like i had disappointed my father for a long time but i know now…

Ashes to Ashes

What do you do when a loved one dies and you are not ready to let go? Well, I thought I had this figured out. I thought Id be spreading my dads ashes somewhere and letting go of him. Today I had my weekly therapy session. Today I took my dads ashes with me. Today,…

Plans Change

You see that picture up there? I don’t remember those smiles. The times of happiness. The times of having my mother and dad together. They spil9up before I was three. I was told a few versions of why amd how it happened. But to be honest, none of that matters. The other day in therapy…

Crazy Thoughts

Most days are normal. Most days follow suit with the plan. However- some days there are little reminders that tear my heart apart. I’m reminded of my fathers death. I’m reminded of that night walking into to his room, calling 911… the funeral… and the four years that followed. I’m reminded that my children don’t…

My dad.

Yesterday was fathers day.This day, since his death has never held much meaning to me. Ive not been sad or mad, just not affected.However, yesterday that changed.Yesterday I cried so much I got a headache. At first I was mad for feeling this way. But now I can see that after almost 11 years, Im…